Saturday, March 31

even though someone dont even dare to hold my hands.
even though someone is so silly.
even though someone is like a 木头人.
but, he's still my baby boy.

my silly boy..
he's here to nutralize all my weaknesses and cover them up..
so i'll be a strong girl. (:
he's here to lend me his shoulder,
& listen to me whenever i have something to say.
he's somebody who thinks i'm special becos i'm stubborn.
the only one to think i'm wildful becos i'm determined.
also the first one to say i'm beautiful with single eye lid.
he wants me to be the world's only doted girl.
and willing to be a nameless soul if i'm heartbroken one day.
he has been pampering me so much.
making me feel oh-so-guilty.

i've been praying so hard to find that someone special.
thank goodness i found him. (:
i know it's him.
& it has been ages since i felt love.

what we could have been, 3/31/2007 03:05:00 AM.

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my silly boy will be there for me, always.
& i love him like how he love me. (:

what we could have been, 3/31/2007 02:47:00 AM.

Friday, March 30

i thought love doesnt exist anymore.
i thought cupid wont look up to me anymore.
i thought love doesnt comes to a simple girl like me.
but i was proven wrong.
totally wrong.

i met someone who is niceee.
someone who doesnt have much temper.
someone who have common do(s) & dont(s).
someone who is sweet.
someone who prefer do things we both are interested in.
someone who has special powers to change my negative thoughts into positive ones.
someone who promise me that he will not let me suffer from any heartbreaks.
someone who wants 美丽的爱情 just like me.
someone who doesnt wanna see me crying over unworthy guys.
someone who is 傻傻的. (:
most importantly, he loves me. :D

he's someone very important to me.
even his smiles are crucial.
hope everything goes well.
loves. (:

what we could have been, 3/30/2007 01:26:00 AM.

Wednesday, March 28

totally shitness.
right now, i'm missing someone who i shldnt be missing.
someone, pls shoot me down now.
but ps; he's REAL cute. (:

what we could have been, 3/28/2007 03:25:00 AM.

Tuesday, March 27

okayokays.
i'm super busy & i dont have time to update.
really sorry peeps.
but somehow myprecious told me he has problem viewing my blog.
my com's fault or his? =\

i'll update soon soon soon. (:

ps; looking very forward to tml's gym + mos burger + keyboard search. :D

what we could have been, 3/27/2007 03:15:00 AM.

awww.. someone is so sweet. :D

he told me this..
"i'll try to make ur day happy everytime when im here..so there will be no unhappy days"
aint him sweet? (:

what we could have been, 3/27/2007 12:23:00 AM.

Monday, March 26

why am i always hungry in the middle of the night?
i'm pondering over this question too.

i'm a happy girl.
becos i have the biggest unlimited chillpill who always manage to convince me w/o fail that i'm not fat.
becos my long lost pre-school friend promised to get me a keyboard on my 17th b'day.
becos mygirl's bbq last night was a big success. & i love all of them.
becos i just bought myself a lil twin star sweet.
becos finally i've decided on the mp3 i wanted.
becos daddy mommy doesnt control me that much nowadays.
becos i'm going shopping soon. :D

what we could have been, 3/26/2007 05:31:00 AM.

Friday, March 23

finally tml is the day of mygirl's bbq.
a bbq that doesnt need guys. (:
i fork out time to plan stuffs.
even though i'm tied down with work too.
becos most of them are really busy,
and i can totally understand.

but somehow now,
i got a feeling that it's not gonna be fun anymore.
i dont know..
it's just a bad omen.
& i'm not in the mood for anything.
just feel like running away with a deep deep sleep.
i really hope mygirls can be as close as the past.
the way we gossip abt ppl we hate.
and the silly stuns we made.

although in abt a month or so,
we will be separated somehow.
tp, rp, & retaking..
but, i really treasure every single one.
and hope our lifes will be the same.
i wanna meet up with you girls even when school starts.
even for sakae lunch or something.
serious.

you girls shld know i hate to see friends leaving me.
& you girls will be the last i wanna say goodbye to.
hope the bbq tml will be filled with smiles.
cos i've gotten ready my camera.
pls, girls?

what we could have been, 3/23/2007 03:33:00 AM.

Tuesday, March 20

worked today.
kbox tml.
i'm all smiles. (:

will update sooon. :D

my heart pumped at it's fastest rate.

& i blushed after you went off.

thank goodness you like it. :D

i know you're angry after knowing i didnt eat it.

but, i treasure it more than anyone else.

you know it best.

imy badly.

with lots & lots of love, zy.

what we could have been, 3/20/2007 04:33:00 AM.

Saturday, March 17

我好开心，
因为跟你好像跟亲近了. (:
你肯把事情说给我听，
代表说我在你心里有一定的位子.

能够在茫茫人海中遇见你，
这样的机会是连科学都算不出来的！
我不知道你对我有没有感觉，
但我的心有一点不听使唤地往你的方向走去...

what we could have been, 3/17/2007 03:50:00 AM.

Friday, March 16

not planning to blog much.
just came here to say..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY otis spunkmeyer love! (:
with lots of love,
zy. (:
(and your present is still with me. :D)

ps;
there's nothing to feel lousy abt.
i'll be always here if you need someone to hear you out.
advising you the pros and cons.
but yet supporting you in whatever you're doing.
cos you're the one who fulfilled my dreams.
and also the one who gave me so much knowledge.
thanks lots really. (:

what we could have been, 3/16/2007 06:02:00 AM.

Thursday, March 15

原来做喜欢的人喜欢做的东西是那么幸福的.
就像看chobits这样,
和听六月的雨一样.
不知不觉就会高兴起来. (:

你的生日就快到了,
我也已经准备好你的礼物.
好兴奋呀!
希望你会喜欢. (:

what we could have been, 3/15/2007 04:54:00 AM.

it has been ages since i update my blog.

wellwell,
i no longer have the motivation to blog.
plenty of stuffs to blog abt,
and yet, i just feel like keeping everything to myself.
not being selfish nor afraid of ppl knowing my stuffs.
just feel that i do not have to tell the whole world my whereabouts.
& also, somethings aint as meaningful after it has been said out.
so, only my loved ones will know my daily life.

has been sleeping less than 6 hours per day.
occupying myself with chobits and internet.
not forgetting my tv, friendster & msn.
ohmy, my life is just typically B-O-R-E-D.
i'm just tired of stepping out of my hse.
and it has been econs since i went town.
& i've already forgotten when's the last time i went shopping. :(

but, i met junn today.
for some retail therapy. (:
to de-stress & also to pamper myself a lil.
went town to get his NewUrbanMale top.
followed by plaza sing for our daiso & spotlight trip.
bought a box for his top & some uper nice ribbons.
yeayea, i'm gonna decorate the box.
-thrills. =D

zhenyi came while we waited for twinnie.
returned him his photoshop cd.
and.. my twinnie is a going-to-be-entrepreneur. (:
will break the news once everything is done.
and ohmygod, i'm so happy for him alrights?
WEETS!

went bugis to continue my shoppings.
combed the whole place.
bought alot of cos.
making me feel so sinful when i look at the no. of shopping bags i have in my hands.

okay, at the end of the day, i bought...
1) his NewUrbanMale top.
2) box for the top.
3) ribbons from spotlight.
4) a black tee with "someday my prince charming will come!" printed on it.
5) a pink tee with "this is your lucky day because i happen to be single." printed on it.
6) a white tee with "sorry if i look interested, i'm NOT!!!" printed on it.
7) a brown color soft leather bag.

oh ya, after including lunch & some rounding ups,
i spent abt $130 in an afternoon. (:

and what's left on my list is..
1) skinny/straight jeans.
2) self-designed shoes.
3) more tops.
4) more bottoms.
5) more shoes.
6) mp3.
7) accessories.
8) pullover.
9) more bags.
temporary all this at the moment.
i have a hunch that i'm gonna be broke by the end of march.
hehhhes. (:

ohwells, i'm going to bed now.
just cant stop yawning.
BYEBYES everyone.
good night to you too. (:

what we could have been, 3/15/2007 04:09:00 AM.

Sunday, March 11

as time goes by,
friends are slowly leaving.
from everyday chats to hi & bye.
eventually there's nothing to chat abt.
and the last sentence will always be..
"heyheys, how's life?"

i totally loathe this cycle.
there's just too many people.
LTS;
deee;
twinnie;
& soon, otis spunkmeyer love.

i'm sick & tired of such life.
i miss every simgle one.
i tried so hard to get everyone back.
but it doesnt seems positive.
i'm withdrawing from everything.
& closed myself from the outside world.
i no longer wanna face facts & realities.
not mentioning him, her & them.

will be MIA for a period of time.
pls leave me alone.
anything just sms me.
take care guys.
bye.

笑容已经失去了意义,
心也就慢慢的死去.

what we could have been, 3/11/2007 03:11:00 AM.

went out with gp today.
planned to meet at 9am.
but after that changed to 10am.
by the time we met, it's already 11am.
LMAO.

& that ass made me wait for him. -.-
went 216 for some breakfast.
den made our way to the gym.
after walking there for more than 10 mins,
we decided to take a bus down to tampines's branch.
becos bedok's branch very troublesome.
i know it's stupid,
but, whatever. (:

when we were buying the ticket.
that guy serving us super GL.
i placed my student pass on the counter,
while gp told him 2 gym tickets.
& he printed out the receipt.
and told us 5 dollars.
we were shocked of cos,
cos below 17 yrs old only $1.50.
so gp asked him how come $5,
telling him we're only 16 plus.
& he say..
"you didnt say it's student, i've already printed out the receipt."
in a very nasty tone & he's super loud.

tmd, so rude lor.
we wont be that mad if he say it in a nice manner.
and we paid 1 dollar extra.
-.-

but, whatever.
we had so much fun in the gym.
exercising & making so much noise,
laughing at lame jokes,
laughing at bikini babes swimming below,
spying at hot hunks in the gym,
joked abt weird looking muscle man,
and that stupid gp hide my belongings in the locker.
and wants me to guess the locker's number.
totally LAME.

& i lost some weight.
the effect was immediately.
LOL.

i'm going to the gym every now & then.
to shed off some fats and to stall my time.
anyone wanna come along? (:

and i wanna go swimming soon.
i mean soon soon soon. (:

i'm dead tired now.
sleeping less than 6 hours a day.
plus went gym today.
burrrrrrrrrrrr.
get some sleep zy!
BYEBYES world.

what we could have been, 3/11/2007 01:05:00 AM.

Saturday, March 10

just sent my mom to the airport.
she's going for a holiday.
leaving me behind. :(
HAHAHAHHAS.

she took the cam with her.
i'm gonna die of boredom i guess. :(
& she's super kua zhang.
i have to teach her twice on how to use the simple camera.
plus, she even wrote down how to use it.
she says in case she forgets.
LMAO.
and, she have to be prepared to see the house in a big mess when she comes back.
LOL. (:

went swensen to look for din.
was also testing my luck for the interview.
but becos they're busy.
so i've to go there again on mon. :(
saw junliang also.
chatted awhile before i go.

wellwell,
i'm chatting with guan peng now.
discussing abt tml.
meeting him for gym & swimming session.
need to make myself exercise & lose some fats.
was super excited abt swimming.
cos it has been ages since i swim.
but after planning everything,
i remember i cant swim.
cos i'm having my period.
cancelled swimming from our list-to-do.
SHIT LAH.
that makes me a super unhappy girl.

but it's alright,
gym session plus pearly soyamilk will bring that smile back. (:
alrights, i've get back to gp to continue our conversations.
we've been chatting since 12am.
whoos, for solid 4 hours.
non-stop.

i'm wondering what will happen tml.
with him.
i'm sure it will be super candid.
laughing our asses off.
i love my NIKEsai.
lmao lmao.
& i'm the PUMAsai.
hahahahahhahahas. (:

what we could have been, 3/10/2007 01:19:00 AM.

Friday, March 9

whats the purpose of packing your stuffs till 5am?
& waking up at 10am to continue packing?
making myself super exhausted which leads to a terrible headache.
plus, cramps are so painful till i even forgo my lunch.
i'm doing all this, for a friend.
and yet, what i got back was your bad attitude.
seriously, it was shit.
is this what you will say to a friend?
or shld i assume that you dont even recognise me as your friend?
i find myself so dumb.
real dumb.

what we could have been, 3/09/2007 04:57:00 PM.

alright,
stupid menstrual cramp.
totally spoilt my mood for shopping.
sat there and rest for hours.
& headed home early. -.-

gave my black sesame ice cream a miss.
super irritated. :(
mood swings & stomach cramps.
urgh, i hate periods.

what we could have been, 3/09/2007 02:23:00 AM.

Thursday, March 8

to my best friend;

i teared with joy when you initiated a conversation with me. i know i sound silly, but i'm really very happy. i'm not thinking of the impossible. just very very glad that we're back to friends again. cos i'm really worried that the friendship between us will just end like this. i'm also very elated that you've made plans for your future. cos you're not really stupid seriously. (: work hard, i'll be supporting you till the end. no matter what happens, you're the one who understand me most & of cos vice versa. (:

take care &
best friends forever.

ps; you made my day. (:

from zy.

what we could have been, 3/08/2007 07:39:00 PM.

heyheys. (:
well, i went for sakae buffet lunch today.
wheelocks again.

i'm there almost every week.
having buffet there once a week.
& it's making me super sinful.
cos eating an average of 20 plates per person isnt real good.
plus, patronising there once a week is worst.
i always wanted to kill myself after gorging them.
but my charwamushi & soft shell crab handroll are always smiling at me. :(
thinking of the no. of calories & carbs i've taken in.
omg, i shall stop thinking abt it.

went topshop after that.
a top caught my eye.
simple yet nice one.
it's with musical notes.
but based on the $36 printed on the price tag,
i think it's not worth, seriously.
so i gave it up,
and watched it waved goodbye to me. :(

walked from wheelocks to heeren.
to pass someone something. (:
well, it's obvious i'm keeping it a secret.
but i'm really happy to see her.
& of cos happy that he've received it. (:
and i'll remember she poked me with the pen. -.-
HAHHAHAS. but i love her still. (:

back to tampines.
went foxs to look around.
bought a blouse from there.
seriously, i think it's a impulsive buy.
cos i grabbed it into the fitting room,
tried on it, asked for a smaller size.
and PHOOF, i paid for it.
&, it's also $36. -.-

but ohwells,
since i've bought it,
i must wear it.
at least once. =\

seriously,
i dont know why i suddenly got the habit of impulsive shopping.
it isnt good right? :(
i shall kick that bad habit.
asap. (:
PLUS, i think i'm shopping way to much recently.
i need to stop.
before i burnt a hole in my own pocket. =\

alrights,
meeting junn tml.
♥BYEBYES world. (:

it's the 8th march.
my muffin is expiring min by min.
the promise is disappearing min by min too.
imy. :(

tons to stuff to talk to you abt.
imy & ily.

what we could have been, 3/08/2007 02:28:00 AM.

Wednesday, March 7

oh hi! (:
wellwell,
has been super busy recently.
not able to blog that often.
so, i'm gonna chunk everything here. (:

today is the result of posting.
i broke down when i logged into the webbie.
shant elaborate much.
but i'm fine now, really. (:
thanks otis-spunkmeyer love, twinnie & myangels.
for being there for me when i needed them.

was looking for ppl to accompany me down to tp.
miss candice teok was kind enough to accompany me there.
even thou she has dental appointment @ 5pm.
grabbed some advisers.
chatted & asked lots of questions.
although it did help a lil,
but it also adds on my worries & puts me into a dilemma.
it's now when i feel how cruel is reality.
concerning my education & my future.
-SMACKS, zy needs to grow up. (:

walked 2 bus stop with candice.
chatted thru the whole journey.
as usual, she wants to know all my latest stories.
she still loves me i know.
even thou she loves sean more. -.-

it has been long since i saw her.
dont even mention chatting to her.
i remember how we used to chat during lessons.
singing vanessa carltons's a thousand miles together.
taking turns to sleep in eng lessons.
or even sharing sweets & snacks under tables.
i miss her so much. (:

was chatting with twinnie just now.
he was just checking out whether i'm fine.
& he really listened to me just to cheer me up.
he starts drawing whatever i wanted him to draw.
my favourite, SUNFLOWER. (:

it's super nice right?
looks so real. (:

but after a while,
i kept pestering him,
asking him to help me install the programme.
telling him i can only draw a heap of shit for him.
becos i totally cannot make it for art.
and, he drew me...

a pile of shit.
KUKU. -.-

hmmmphs,
someone i missed so much called me today.
pouring her sorrows to me.
telling me her worries & fears for him.
telling me how much she is concern for him.
and yet he doesnt appreciate it.
seriously, both of us understand him better than anyone else.
she thinks that he is naughty & stubborn.
but we know deeply, he's not that stupid overall.
wellwell, i had a good talk with her.
although it's only a 10 mins phone call.
but i know she still cares abt me.
if not, she will not call to check things up.
she's the best _____ i've ever come across.
i'll pop up at her work place someday.
i promise.
cos i've already treated her as my 2nd ___. (:

oh ya,
it's already the 7th today.
means, tml is the 8th.
it's a mix feeling for me.
cos i'm looking forward to 8th march cos it's finally my pay day.
and yet not wanting 8th march to come that fast.

cos, the muffin is expiring on 8th march.
BURRRRRRRRRR,
is there anything to make it last longer?
it has been with me for super long,
giving me motivations & huge smiles,
and now, i dont know what to do with it.
alrights, shoot me in the head now. :(

wellwell,
most probably, sakae again tml. (:
with zhenyi & roger.
oh guan peng,
please ask me out for gym session.
before i grow real fat.
ring me up asap alrights?
=DDDDDDDD

alrights,
gonna go to bed now.
it's already 4.05am.
time to sms mr otis-spunkmeyer. (:
BYEBYES world. (:

the muffin is expiring soon.
when are you going to buy me another one?
i dont wanna see the muffin promise to just end like this.
your b'day is coming soon.
and i'm still wondering what to give.
my brain is full of ideas,
but the crutial question now is,
will you like it?
BURRRRRRRRRR,
imy. :(

please heed your mom's advise for once,
maybe you wanna do things in your way,
but at least, listen to what she wanna say?
ask yourself,
when's the last time you sit down & talk to her?
when's the last time you really looked into her eyes?
when's the last time you hugged her?
or even say you love her?
i know i no longer have the right to comment abt you.
becos i'm not your gf anymore.
but it hurts me to see you & her like this.
seeing her so hurt and lost,
you dont know how much i wanted to help her.
but i dont wanna give her hopes & crashes it again.
cos i know you no longer listen to me.
but please do not throw your temper on her.
cos she's the one looking after you for 17 years.
she will also be the one showering you with love,
till the day she leaves this world.
trust me, family members is the only people you can rely on.
cherish your mom & dad, my japanese rockstar.
ily.

what we could have been, 3/07/2007 02:19:00 AM.

Sunday, March 4

hi everyone. (:
i know it has been ages since i update.
but even my all time reader, myprecious, isnt that excited abt me blogging.
this really threatens my blogging life.
& it pulls down my eagerness to blog.
urghh.

alrights,
i shall cut the crap & just blog. (:
wellwell, get ready for TONS of stuffs.
p.s. it's image heavy. (:

26th feb' o7

went marina square with myangels.
ate kfc with junn while waiting for manda to arrive.
went dorothy perkins to try on skinnies.
& got myself a top. (:
then we did alot of retail therapy.
followed by screams & laughters everywhere.

becos it's weekday,
so there isnt much people there.
and we really made helluva noises.
till almost every shopkeepers laughed at us.

alrights, i will share some funny moments. (:
me & junn were eating kfc.
and i've finished my zinger long ago.
and wanted to take some photos.
so, i turned to junn & said,
"junnn, show me your CHICK-KEN."
she ended up laughing non-stop.
and that explains the first picture. (:

another one,
we were at topshop.
and junn wanted to try on some tops.
one of the young salesman came towards us.
him; "hi, can i help?"
and before junn open her mouth to ask for sizes,
i screamed, "NOOOOO! we dont need help."
lmao.
the guy was shock, we can see from his face.
LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL.

&&amp;&&,
junn wanted some japanese ice cream.
we were all busily looking at the wide choice of ice cream.
of cos, junn was spoilt for choice.
so me and manda advised her to eat black sesame.
but junn say she doesnt like it.
as usual, manda & me continue to irratate her with the black sesame ice cream,
pestering her to choose that flavour.
she got pissed off of cos. (:
she told him she wanted milk tea flavour.
so, disappointed manda & me stopped pestering.
& that shopkeeper dug her ice cream.
after a min or so,
he told junn..
"i'm very sorry, milk tea flavour is still soft. can you choose another flavour?"
immediately, there's a grin on manda's & my face.
and we started the "bong.. choose black sesame." thingy again.
LMAO.

i swear it's super candid.
even the ppl working there was laughing at us. (:

more shoppings,
bought some food before sending manda to work.
after which, we rested near the fountain.
most probably,
we will be going back somewhere next week.
to buy junn's card & to queue for that donut. (:
it's my first time seeing ppl QUEUEING for donuts.
and it's not a short queue.
it's a longgggggg one.
probably 15 mins of queueing?
oh well,
i'll definately get back to you guys with my donut trip. (:

28th feb' o7

went raffles city,
in search of our peanut butter with condensed milk toast.
& junn's steamed bread with kaya dip.
finally, after going there twice,
we finally found it.

heads or tails,
146, market street carpark.

and gosh, we swear it's super nice.
although it was our late breakfast,
but we certainly had lots of fun. (:

the peanut butter bread is not as sweet,
compared to the shop in far east.
& becos here, they cut it in smaller pieces,
so it makes eating much more easier. (:

tasty bread followed by nice desserts. (:
just a few shops away,
there's a dessert shop featuring hk dessert.
the shopkeeper is super friendly.
she gave us some samples to try.

my recommendation is..
red scarlet. (:
red bean, yam and sago with milk.
it's super nice even thou i dont like red beans.

junn's recommendation is..
in all fairness.
barkey gingko with beancurd skin.
good for the skin i heard.
but i dont really like gingko nut. (:

amanda's recommendation is..
EVERYTHING.
lmao.
cos she simply consume everythere there. (:

afterwhich,
we cabbed down to town.
went heeren to hunt for some stuffs,
and headed wheelocks for our sakae buffet lunch.
the moment we sat down,
we begin to order, NON-STOP.
even w/o looking at the menu.
& in a go, 10-15 plates appeared on our tables.
and we ate in total of 50 plates. (:
trust me, the 3 of us are big eaters.
dont ever under-estimate us. (:

we laughed madly, loudly & crazily.
not even bothering people around us.
we sat there for solid 3 hours.
to just eat & joke & eat & joke.
=DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

met zhenyi after that,
and went far east for intensive shopping.
of cos, i combed the whole orchard that day. (:
totally SATISFIED.

ohwells,
i shall end this post now.
cos i still got lots of stuffs to post abt.
cya soon. (:
BYEBYES. ♥

what we could have been, 3/04/2007 05:22:00 PM.

planned to blog tonight.
but time flies & it's already 3.30am.
plus, my headache is killing me.
making me feel dizzy everytime i stand up.
gosh, i guess its all the runs in the rain which caused it.
ohwells, i will blog asap tml.
tons of stuffs to blog abt.
LOVES. (:

there goes my muffin promise.
it's a infatuation i know. :(

pls take care of yourself.
it hurts me to see you like this.

what we could have been, 3/04/2007 03:13:00 AM.